Kids

4 Months?!? How did that happen?

As I see my little tit-sucker napping in the baby monitor, I’m in awe.  How is it that she’s already 4 months old?  How is it possible that a third of a year has passed us by since she joined us?  Where is the time going?  I have days where I think 6pm (when hubby gets home) will never get here….and then I have weeks that fly by in the blink of an eye.  It’s overwhelming if I think too much about it…I hate the thought of Fin growing up too fast!

We have had a very eventful last month or so.   A few things:

  • We took a trip to Eastern TX/Dallas for over a week (with the baby, of course).  Traveling with a baby is tough!  First of all, we drive any long distances (more than 3 hours) at night so that Finley will sleep.  This works well, except that we are tired and end up unpacking into hotels in the middle of the night.  Fun.  Secondly, having a baby in a hotel room for any amount of time really isn’t that fun.  You have to be quiet after bedtime…you rush to quiet her any time she fusses….you know there are nasty germs everywhere…I could go on and on.  Luckily, Finley did great and slept well and behaved herself while we were there.  She was a little needy…and gassy (probably from me having to eat out every meal)..but she did better than we expected for sure.  When we got home, though, she was awful!  It took a full 3 days to get her back on track with her sleeping/napping/etc….it was rough. Makes me want to keep her home!
  • I had my first Mother’s Day!  Chris totally surprised me and bought me a beautiful garnet (Fin’s birthstone) necklace for Mother’s Day.  He’s really not much into buying jewelry (at all), so it was a big surprise.  I love it!
  • We put our house up on the market…and we have had a bazillion showings so far (but no offers…boooo).  I’m so happy to have it listed, but MAN it’s tough working from home with a baby and two dogs and having to clean up and clear out any time a showing gets scheduled (which lately is every day).  It’s exhausting.  Hopefully this baby will sell fast!

That’s the main stuff.  In fact, it’s all I can think of right now. I need to start writing down post-its when I think of stuff I want to blog, because by the time I actually have any time to do it I’m rushed and just trying to remember whatever I can!

Before I get to the monthly update on Fin, just wanted to put it out there for you all to please send me your good vibes/prayers/energy/whatever.  I’m completely overwhelmed with at the moment and don’t really see a light at the end of the tunnel.  Working from home with a baby is really hard, and the help I thought I’d have just hasn’t been around.  And that’s ok, but I need to move on to Plan B because between work, Finley, keeping the house up for showings and having to come and go every day I don’t have anything left to give.  I’m exhausted and trying to hold on here, people!  I think one answer is to find someone who can come over a couple of days a week and watch Finely for me while I work.  I’ve registered on Care.Com to try to find someone, but if you know of anyone (or are someone) who may be interested, please let me know!  I’d even take her to someone else’s house if needed, I just don’t want her in a daycare at this time (not that there is anything wrong with that, I’m just not ready for that yet).  So….let me know if you know anyone.  And pray this house sells quickly, that would help too.

And now..without further adui….the 4 month update:

 

Fin 4 month close-up

What are your stats and what does the doctor say?

At your 4 month appointment you weighed 13lbs and 14 oz (56th percentile) and were 25 3/4 inches long (94th percentile).  I’m still in shock that you are lean and mean and not a fat baby!  I mean come on, you started off over 9 lbs, so I just assumed you would continue to fatten up!  I was wrong, though, and it appears for now that you take after your daddy (a good thing when it comes to body type for sure).  Doctor said you are perfect.

What are you eating?

You are still a breastfed baby, and you have gotten to be quite the efficient feeder.  You use to feed for 15-20 minutes, and now you are done in 7-14 on average.  You get in and out quickly most of the time, although at night you prefer to be lazy and take your time (which I don’t mind).  You recently tried some cereal for the first time, but you weren’t too impressed.  That’s ok with me- we’re not in a rush to get you on solids (makes it way easier on momma since I have your food on tap AND don’t have to wash real-food diapers yet).

When do you eat and sleep?

During the day you eat every 3ish hours (I generally sit in the recliner, although I’ve had to nurse in the car, in a restroom, in a food court, etc), and at night you usually wake up once (between 3am and 6am) to eat as well.  You nap (if we are home) in your crib..usually 3-4 times a day.

What do your routines look like?

Eat, Play, Sleep (per BabyWise) is still what we are trying to follow.  A typical day looks like this:

  • Wake up around 6am and eat and go right back to sleep
  • Wake up around 9am and eat.  Play on the floor/in the bouncy seat til around 10:30 or 11 and then take a 1-1.5 hour nap
  • Wake up at noon and eat.  Run errands/take a walk/back in the bouncer til around 2, then a nap for an hour
  • Wake up at 3 and eat…then more play time and another 30-45 minute nap
  • Wake up at 6 and eat.  Then we hang with daddy…take a bath…maybe a walk if we didn’t earlier (mommy is trying to get some exercise, obviously)…read some books, etc.  Little catnap after this until you wake up
  • Last feeding of the day is around 9pm…then straight back to bed.  Finley sometimes wakes up around 12 or 1 (if she didn’t eat well or has gas or something) to eat again, then straight back to sleep

This schedule isn’t terrible for her age AT ALL, but if you have her 24/7 and are also trying to work it’s exhausting.

 What size clothes and diapers are you wearing?

Onesies and shirts and dresses are all 3 months or 3-6 months, but pants (because of her cloth diaper ghetto-booty) and one piece outfits with legs on them (because of her height) have to be 6 months.  I actually REALLY need to go through her closet this weekend and pack up all of the ‘too small’ stuff that is still in there (kinda makes me sad).  As for diapers, all of the cloth diapers we have are one size (fit from now until she’s out of diapers since they adjust).  If she needs a disposable on, she’s in a 2.

What are some things you love?

You love to stand up ALL.THE.TIME.  You love to bounce in your little bouncy chair/jumper thing (video on instagram if you are interested).  You love to grab stuff and put it directly into your mouth as far as you can.  You love to be man-handled and scared so that you laugh.  You love to roll from your belly to your back.  You love screens (phones/tvs/etc).  You love being outside (as long as you are not hot).  You love our dogs.  You love your lovies.  You love attention.

What are some things you don’t love?

You HATE diaper changes in the middle of the night.  You hate waiting on mommy to feed you once you decide you are hungry.  You don’t enjoy being held like a baby/cuddled unless you are really tired and ready to sleep.  You don’t like getting to your belly and not being able to flip over right away (sometimes you forget how to flip back over).  You hate getting out of the bathtub.  And you hate getting hot (like your parents).  TEETHING.  OMG we are in the midst of it….you are drooling non-stop….chewing on anything/everything…crabby…and restless.  Can’t wait for those teethers to pop through!

What can you do?

You have really progressed a lot this month.  You started rolling from belly to back at 8 weeks, and at 15 you started rolling from your back to your belly.  You are so proud of yourself!  As soon as you are put down on your back you flip over…it’s so funny.  You are so strong it’s ridiculous!  You are already trying to crawl and get your butt up in the air like you are going somewhere.  It’s comical.  You are really good at grabbing things now (and putting them right into your mouth), although sometimes I wish you were not (like when you get my hair or daddy’s beard).  You can converse if you are in the mood for it…we’ve talked back and forth for several minutes several different times…it’s so fun!

Who has visited and watched you?

We don’t really get many visitors, but we’ve done some visiting (you did meet your great Aunt/cousins in TX)….and only mom and dad have been watching you.

What are we looking forward to in the next month?

June looks to be a pretty busy month. Besides the normal craziness of the week that we currently have, we also have an open house coming up….our 8 year anniversary…a weekend with some friends…Father’s Day…a trip to Russellville to see Gran and Pops….it’ll be a good one!

Fin 4 month grinFin 4 month chewing on dogFinley 4 months smiles and pulling dress Fin on diaper changing pad

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What I needed the first 3 months…

I have a couple of blog readers who I KNOW are pregnant at the moment (and I’m so excited for you), so I’m putting together a list of the top things I have needed/used over the last three months.  These are only things that I highly recommend and would totally register for/buy again in a heartbeat.  These are in no particular order..I like them all!  And these are things that I believe to be necessary, as they were for me/Finley…

For feeding (note that Fin is solely a breast milk baby at this point):

  • The Medela Pump in Style breast pump.  I’m sure there are several great pumps, but this is the one I have…and I like it.  It’s a double-pump and has great suction.  I started pumping at 4 weeks and pumped daily to get my supply up…and now I hardly ever pump since I’m with Fin 95% of the time.
  • A ‘hands free’ pumping bra.  I’m sure any brand will do just fine, but it’s SO much better than holding the bottles for 20 minutes each time you pump!  Trust me!  You’ll want to be googling all kinds of baby stuff on your phone during this 20 minutes instead.  I promise.
  • Tommee Tippee bottles (make sure and get the 0-3 month bottles, as they have the ‘slow flow’ nipples that won’t get your baby use to a fast flow and make her only want bottles).  These bottles are pretty ‘breast like’ and Fin had zero problems taking the bottle and going back to the boob whenever.  Dr. Browns bottles are also suppose to be great, but they have a LOT of parts to wash, so keep that in mind.

For sleeping:

  • For the first 5ish weeks, Finley slept in the Rock n Play we got from target.  Picture below.  It’s light…it folds up…we travel with it (still…so much easier than the pack n play at this point)…you can carry it from room to room at home…it worked for us.  We also have a sweet pack and play, but before we could transition Finley from the rock n play to the pack n play I had to kick her out of my room because she was so noisy…so we just moved her to the crib in her room.

rock and play

  • Finley is quite the mover, so we HAVE to swaddle her to get her to sleep well…otherwise her hands are in her face and they wake her up.  That said, her middle name should be Houdini, because she can get out of pretty much any swaddle.  Seriously.  Because of her special escape abilities, we found two things that worked/work for us: 1).  The miracle blanket.  This thing was the first wrap we found that could keep Fin’s arms in….and it worked well until about 2.5 months (just a size thing, I think) and 2). The halo sleep sack with swaddle.  This is what we are using currently, and it’s UBER user friendly and can be used for quite a while

 

  • miracle blanket
  • Halo

For diapering

  • We used disposable diapers for the first 2.5 months.  We preferred the Pampers Swaddlers to all other kinds we tried (and I hear it’s different for boys vs girls and chubby babies vs skinny babies, etc).  We are now in cloth diapers and loving it..but that’s a whole other post in itself.

For hygiene

  • The Nosefrida.  I know, it totally looks gross and might be ‘too much’ for people to think about, but it works WAY better than the suction bulb thingy..and Finley doesn’t mind it half as much.  Plus…and maybe I’m gross…but I like to see if I’m getting anything out.  Yes, you put one end in your kid’s nose and the other in your mouth and you suck out the snot.  Don’t fear, though, there are filters to keep you from getting anything in your mouth.  Trust me…get one. You’ll thank me later.

nosefrida

  • We’ve been using Aveeno bath products and lotions….with no problems.  They don’t smell fancy or anything, but they work and don’t break her out…so that’s a win in my book.

For sanity

  • We have two monitors.  The first is the Motorola 3.5″ video monitor.  It’s amazing and we love it.  You can see/hear/talk to baby/play music/etc.  It has great range and the picture quality is very good.  Some people don’t want/need the video monitor, but I need it for my sanity and it’s so nice to see if Fin’s making noises in her sleep or ready to get up.  The second monitor we have is the BabySense Infant Movement Monitor.  This is the one that goes under the mattress and senses if there is no movement (including breathing) after like 15 seconds.  We went with this brand for two reasons- 1…great reviews…and 2…the Angelcare one that everyone raves about just had a recall.  Needless to say, we are happy with our choice.  We have never had a false alarm and it was super easy to set-up.  All I have to do is push a button on the panel (see bottom right of crib..white box) once Fin is in her crib and that’s it.  Whenever I go to pick her up, I push button again. Easy peasy….and SOOOOO much peace of mind.  Love this.

monitormonitor 1

     monitor 2

  • Also for sanity are my baby carriers.  I use the plural on that, as I have three of them.  A little much, I know, but different sizes and temperments call for different things….and seeing as I’m a work-from-home mom, I have to do whatever possible to keep this baby happy and let momma get some stuff done!  For the first month and half to two months, I used Maya ring sling.  This worked perfectly for us.  Finley still loves it, but I don’t use it as much nowadays.  Mostly, I use my Ergo.  I use it around the house…when we go grocery shopping…when we go on quick walks…when I’m going to be around a bunch of people and don’t want to play ‘pass the baby’…etc.  If Fin is in it for more than 20 minutes she passes out.  Every.single.time.  The third thing I have is the BabyBjorn that I got at Rhea Lana.  It was uber cheap or I wouldn’t have bought it.  I don’t use it often (there are lots of reviews on how you should have your infants hips in a carrier…and the Ergo is the way to go from what I read), but it’s easiest for Chris to use AND sometimes Fin is just fussy and wants to face out and move around…so it’s good for that.
  • The Fisher Price sit-me-up. Finley thinks she’s a big girl and likes to sit-up a lot.  This can be tiring on mom and dad, so we tried several different seats and what-not.  We tried swings…we have a MamaRoo and she likes it just ‘ok’…we have the Bumbo….and then we have the Fisher Price sit-me-up.  She loves it!  It’s much softer than the bumbo and has more ‘give’ in my mind.  Highly recommend

sit me up

Fin yawn in chair

 

  • Finally (and yes, this goes under sanity)…invest in several different infant gowns.  We have SOOOO many clothes for Fin, but for the first month and half she just lived in the same 5 gowns because they were easiest for changing diapers and getting on/off.  When you are up every few hours, you don’t want anything complicated!  I’d avoid leggings/buttons for as long as possible, at least at night.  =)
  • infant gown

That’s really all I can think of at the moment…I’m sure I’m forgetting something (and if so I’ll edit this and update the preggos I know), but this is a good start.  I’ll try to do this every few months and maybe start a “Fin’s Favorites” or something.  =)  Hope this helps someone!

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3 months

I should probably wait to write this update since I’m in a really foul mood and all, but who knows when I’ll have another little bit of time to dedicate to this…so I might as well get it in while I can.  I’m not going to go into the whole story about why I’m sitting here crying at my desk, but let’s just say that I’ve OFFICIALLY learned that I can’t count on the two people (besides my hubby) in my life who I always thought I could count on most. It’s irritating and frustrating and all that, but mostly it’s just sad and disappointing.    I guess I always just expected my friends and family to be there for me…especially when I ask for help…and even more so when they say they will be…but obviously I’m wrong to have those expectations.  Chris just looked at me this afternoon and was like “are you surprised?”  I wasn’t.  Just sad.  But I won’t be again, because I won’t set myself up to be disappointed, at least with these two.  The flip side to this is that I have had several friends and family come out of the woodwork over the past few months- cooking meals/offering help/having us over/coming to visit/etc.  It’s been very surprising and I’ve learned a lot about the loving and giving nature of a select few.  It’s saved me, really….at least my sanity.  And it’s taught me that I’m not the bad guy for having expectations within my relationships…because some people will meet and even exceed them if you let them in.  I’m learning, trust me!

Things in our world are very, very crazy and busy at the moment.  Finley turned 3 months old yesterday, which blows my mind.  Isn’t she cute?

Fin 3 months leaning over laughing Finley 3 months great pic Finley 3 months laughing Finley 3 months pretty Finley 3 months squint eyes

We have also decided to list our house, which is totally exciting, yet totally stressful.  I wouldn’t stress over it too much, but there are a few things that need done before it goes up (May 1st) and it’s really hard to get said things done when I’m working, watching a 3 month old and going out of town every weekend.  Let’s just say that I have a LOT to do this week and I have no idea how I’m going to get it all done.  Keep your fingers crossed for me, because I need all the luck I can get!  The other stressful part of having the house up is that I’ll have to have the house uncluttered with baby stuff and be gone (remember that I work from home..with an infant and two dogs) whenever they show the house.  Ugh.  It’s gonna be a long few weeks if this thing doesn’t sell quickly!  Again, cross your fingers for us!

This past weekend we took our first big road trip with the baby, and she did great!  We went to Dallas for a wedding reception, and we had a great time.  Fin doesn’t generally do too well in the car, so we left out Thursday night around 8pm and drove straight through…and she slept the entire time.  When we got to the hotel we unpacked and I fed her and she went right back to sleep until 9am…she was perfect!  The reception/party was a lot of fun, and we got a lot of compliments on how well-behaved Finley was the whole time.  I said thanks, but I also let them know that it was just a good day and that she wasn’t always THAT good.  =)  I decided to drive us back Saturday night (10pm to 4 am) vs waiting til Sunday as well, and I’m glad I did…Fin and her drunk daddy slept the whole way home.  =)

My biggest news this month is a big deal to me- we finally paid off all of our debt.  For the first time in I don’t even KNOW how long (I’m guessing 10+ years), we are debt free.  I paid off my 4 runner this month, and we paid off the last of our private loan that we took out about a year ago to pay off credit card debt.  The only thing we owe on now is our house.  Crap…I guess that means we aren’t really debt free?  I don’t really count the house.  Is that fair?  LOL.  I can’t even explain to you the relief and freedom that I feel at this moment!  Whoo hoo!

Now for the monthly round-up…

What are your stats and what does the doctor say?

We have not been to the doctor or checked her stats since our 2 month appointment, so I have no idea.  She looks like she has ‘filled out’ some, so I’m guessing she’s around 12.5-13 lbs currently (just a guess).  She’s healthy and happy from all I can tell!

Fin in Dallas outside

What are you eating?

Finley is still exclusively breastfed at this point.  I’m still not doing dairy at this point, but I may start adding some back in here and there to see how she reacts to it.  There are two changes this month- 1) Fin seems to get distracted during some of her feeds.  She’ll be munching along, and then she’ll detach suddenly and turn her head (this does NOT feel good at all).  Then she’ll reattach and do the whole thing over again…and again…and again.  I’ve read about it online and this can be caused by a dozen different things (getting too much milk at once/not getting enough milk/curiosity to surroundings/tired/gassy/full), which sucks because who knows which one!  I generally just pick her up, try to burp her and then switch sides.  When she starts it up again on the other side, we’re done and cut her off for a while. Seems to be working ok.  2) Fin is eating a lot more efficiently, which means it takes much less time.  What use to be a 30 minute feeding on 1 side is now 15-20 minutes.  I like that.

When do you eat and sleep?

During the day Finley eats about every 3 hours. At night, it’s somewhere between 6 and 9 hours now (yay!).  Naps during the day (there are about 4 of them) range from about 30 minutes to 1.5 hours depending on the time. She naps and sleeps in her crib, swaddled, for the most part.  Sometimes I’ll let her nap near me on her belly (she loves that).

What do your routines look like?

We are still doing the Baby Wise method of eat-wake-sleep.  Our schedule has tweaked some…..

  • Wake at 7:30-8am and feed
  • Play (tummy time/lay around and kick/swing time/etc) for about an hour
  • Nap
  • 10:30- wake from nap and feed
  • Play
  • Nap
  • 1:30- wake from nap and feed
  • Play
  • Nap
  • 4:30- wake from nap and feed
  • Play
  • Nap
  • 7:00- wake from nap and feed
  • Bath/Story time/etc
  • 9- feed and straight to bed
  • Only one nighttime feed now..usually sometime between 3 and 6

What size clothes and diapers are you wearing?

Clothing is mainly 3-6 months at this point, especially anything that covers her bum since we are doing cloth diapers.  Disposables are a size 2, but we’re not using those currently.  The cloth diapers are going well (details in a later post) and we currently have them snapped up to their smallest size.

Baby Bumble Bee Fin

What are some things you love?

This really depends on what time of day it is.  If we are talking about morning time (anytime before 1, actually), Fin enjoys laying down and kicking…sitting up in her little monkey chair…swinging…pretty much anything, as she’s in a great mood.  If it’s after 6, though, she mainly just likes eating and being carried around.  And bath time.  Newest love? Her glow-worm from Aunt Beth!  She fell in love with it on our trip to Dallas.  And a love anytime?  Outside time!  Sitting..strolling…walking in the Ergo…kicking on the patio…she loves it all.

Fin yawn in chair

What are some things you don’t love?

Diaper changes before you have eaten or in the middle of the night. Getting out of the bath tub. Getting lubed up after a bath. Having to wait to eat once you’ve decided you are hungry. Car rides if you don’t have someone in the back with you.

Finley on way to Bakers in car

What can you do?

Her newest talent is cooing and talking bath.  She’s quite the morning talker, and it’s totally adorable.  I’ve tried to get it on video, but every single time she sees the camera she deadpans and stops all activity.

Who has visited and watched you?

We haven’t had too many visitors lately, but that’s mainly because we’ve been busy.  We still haven’t had a babysitter to go out together, but we plan to in May for sure.

What are some of your nicknames?

Behind her back I call her ‘the titsucker’ a lot (awful, I know). I also call her Claire Bear…or boog…or diva.  And Fin, of course.

What are we looking forward to in the next month?

A lot!  We are going to the Buffalo this weekend, so we’ll get lots of family time then.  We also have a trip to TX planned for May, and a couple of birthday parties.  Besides that, hopefully we’ll stay busy with showing the house!  Wish us luck!

Fin for easter

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Week 4 and 5 / One month

Holy Hell does time fly!  Can you believe that my baby was a month old on the 21st?  It’s really shocking.  Parents have always told me to “enjoy every moment” and that “time goes too quickly with your kids”….and I suppose they were right.  I literally blinked my eyes and BAM…I have a one month old!

Weeks 4 and 5 were challenging for me.  First off, Finely has proven the lactation consultant correct and has continued to be a very eager eater.  We’ve had several days in the past week where all she wanted to do was cluster feed.  Instead of feeding every 3-4 hours, she was eating and WITHIN THE HOUR demanding to eat again.  I’d try anything/everything to calm her down/make her happy, but the only thing that would work was putting a boob in her mouth.  This was exhausting and got to be painful by the end of each afternoon.  On top of this, I started pumping a few times at night….so my breasts have gotten a good work-out to say the least.  I feel like a milk cow.

Secondly, I’m just not getting very much sleep.  Fin will sleep for 4 hours at a time a couple of times at night, but by the time I get up and around…feed her…get her back to sleep….pump….wash the pumping components…get myself back to sleep..etc, I’m only getting 2.5- maybe 3 hours each time.  I’m just not use to only getting 5-6 hours of sleep a night.  I’m sure I’ll get better and handling it- I have to!  And I know, I know…it could be much worse.

Third- Fin has just been fussy.  She’ll wake up and eat and be happy for 20-30 minutes…and then after that she’s just plain fussy.  She’ll scream and fuss until I either feed her or get her to go back to sleep.  I know she’s gassy because I can feel her tummy and feel the gas moving around….and she scrunches up her little body in pain when she is able to pass gas…but not sure if this is it or not.  We’ve tried gas drops and gripe water, but nothing is really helping. She’s been like this for about a week now and it’s so frustrating!  I can tell she’s hurting and I can’t do anything for her.  Our pediatrician isn’t worried about it…says it is normal…but I hate it.

And finally, my little nugget just isn’t traveling very well when it’s just me and her.  Without someone in the back seat, I feel like she gets scared and then she works herself up.  And by works herself up, I’m telling you…this girl will sweat through whatever she is wearing and scream til she spits up.  It’s pitiful!  A 45 minute drive the other day took me 2 hours because I had to stop so many times to calm her down.  It makes me feel awful and really makes me not want to go anywhere alone with her until she does better.  Poor girl.

The normal questions (although I’ve decided I’m going to do away with these or change them as many of them won’t really change much now):

1. Is your baby back up to birth weight?  Yes!  We had her 1 month appt on the 21st and she weighed 10 lbs and 3 oz.  Almost a pound up from birth weight and more than a pound up from her last appointment.  She’s also grown a half-inch and is 22 inches now.  This puts her in the 83% for height and 79% for weight.  It’s funny looking at her now, because I think she looks LESS chunky than when she was born.  Maybe the weight is just spreading out more or something?  Who knows.  She’s pretty perfect if you ask me.

2.  Are you breastfeeding/how often?  Yes- solely breastfeeding (she hasn’t had any formula).  I’ve started pumping a few times a day/night, just to build up some supply for when I need a break.  Chris gave Fin her first bottle and she scarfed it down in no time.  Since then she’s only had 2 more and she likes them just fine and goes back to the breast just fine as well.  I’m feeding less often this week, which is nice…about every 3 hours now, sometimes an extra feeding or two thrown in during the day.  Finley would probably go 5-6 hours at night if I’d let her, but I’ve been waking her after 4 so far.  Will probably start stretching that out this week.

3. How is momma’s recovery?  Have you lost weight?  Are you still bleeding?  Can you walk around and lift things?  I’m doing great- feel totally back to normal, actually.  Last time I weighed I was down 13 lbs from before I got pregnant, so happy with that.  Haven’t really been tracking it any more.  I’m sure I would lose a lot more weight if I’d stop eating so much during the day…I’ve been a little out of control!  I don’t know if it’s the breastfeeding making me hungry or just me being bored or what….need to get it in check.  I haven’t been bleeding for a couple of weeks now- yay!  I have my 6 week appointment this week, so hopefully I’ll be cleared to go back to normal on everything (lifting/exercising/taking baths/sex/etc)…

4.  Who is helping?  Is Dad around?  My mom has been coming over once a week for a few hours, and my hubby is still home on paternity leave.  I’m dreading him going back to work!

5.  How is the sleeping situation?  We’ve been making great progress on this, but still have a ways to go.  Finley will sleep 3-4 hours three times in a row at night.  We put her in her rock and play by my side of the bed for a few nights in a row and she slept like a champ.  Then, a couple of nights ago, I started putting her in the pack n play to get her use to the flat surface so that the crib transition wouldn’t be such a big jump.  She did great the first night, but last night she was NOT having it.  She’d be sound asleep and the minute I laid her down in the pack n play her eyes would open wide and she’d start fussing.  We’re working on it!  I’m really thinking we’re just going to bite the bullet and start putting her in her crib soon- next week at the latest.  I know it’ll be hard at first, but getting her out of my room will be good b/c I hear her every sound and it keeps me up a lot.

6.  Any baby milestones this week?  At 4 weeks Finley started smiling on purpose.  It melts my heart and makes me so so happy….

I owe you the 1 month pictures and some other updates, but this is the best I can do for today!

Sleepy Naked Baby Smiles Sleeping Smiles Serious Baby

 

 

 

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The first three weeks

I cannot believe that it’s already been three weeks since Finley made her arrival- doesn’t seem possible!  I’m going to briefly describe each week of what I can remember, then I’ll get to some specific questions that I want to continue to update at least every other week in order to keep track of things.

WEEK 1- We spent half of the first week in the hospital (Fin arrived on Tuesday and we left on Friday cause we wanted an extra night with the nursery)…mainly just entertaining people who came to visit, breastfeeding and trying to get a little rest.  When we came home, my mom came with us and stayed three nights.  I didn’t plan on her coming (or ask her to), but she had planned on it and I couldn’t say no.  She helped out with cooking/cleaning and baby-holding, so it was nice for a couple of days.  Fin (like most babies) lost weight those first few days-  she was born at 9.4 and went down to 8.8 by Friday.  She was an ‘eager eater’ (according to the lactation consultant) from day one, so she was always wanting to nurse…at least every 3 hours, usually every 1.5-2 hours.  My milk came in on Saturday, although I wouldn’t have even noticed it if Finley hadn’t detached suddenly one time.  A lot of women warned me that my breasts would become hard and hurt and look totally different, but mine never did that.  Not sure if it is because I never had a chance to get engorged (since she’s been so attached to me since day one) or what, but I’ll take it.  We nursed a LOT those first few days home and Fin was sleeping in 2-3 hour increments.  She hates having her diaper changed

 

WEEK 2- Had our first peds appt that Monday, and Finley had gained 6 oz in three days (since check out on Friday).  WOW!  Maybe my milk is part half and half?  LOL.  Doc said she looked perfect and was gaining weight back on track and sent us on our way. I was disappointed with the lack of information that the doc provided (I was expecting some percentiles or some “don’t do this” or “make sure you do this”) and how short the appointment was, but happy for the good report.  Scheduled her 1 month follow-up for the 21st.  Chris and I got into a sort of schedule this week where he will stay in the living room each night with Fin while she sleeps (she’s a super loud sleeper and I’m still paranoid enough that if I’m in the room with her trying to sleep I can’t sleep at all) and then he sleeps during the day while I’m up with her.  We found that if she’s on our chests (on her belly), she’ll sleep 3-4 hours…but if we put her down on her back we’re good to get an hour.  She doesn’t like being on her back at all.  She’s doing better this week at diaper changes, so that’s good.  This week we had a few rough nights where she just wanted to use me as a pacifier to soothe herself.  Not sure if it was gas or a growth spurt or if she just wanted the comfort of sucking, but it was REALLY hard on me.  I was exhausted…my boobs hurt so bad every time she would latch…. and neither one of us were happy about the situation.  I started giving her some gas drops and Chris was able to start getting her to take a paci some, so that helped a lot.  After a couple of days it was better.  This week was also the week that my hormones went nuts. On several different occasions I would just start crying.  I wasn’t thinking about anything…I wasn’t sad…I wasn’t overwhelmed or stressed….I was just crying.  I think it worried Chris a bit, but it didn’t last long thankfully.

 

WEEK 3- The cord FINALLY fell off of her belly button (we had been putting alcohol at the base for a while to dry it out), so I was able to give Fin her first bath.  She didn’t love it…think she got too cold.  I bought a space heater the other day, though, so maybe next time will be better!  Finley is still an eating machine, and she quite a good sleeper.  The other night she slept for 6 hours straight..I woke up in a panic, convinced that Chris had fallen asleep holding her and something had happened.  My boobs were NOT happy about going 6 hours between feedings either….don’t want to do that again anytime soon.  Since then I’ve been setting my alarm for every 4 hours and waking her up if I need to.  Nursing got MUCH better this week.  Until earlier this week, every time Fin would latch I felt like she was stabbing my  nipple with a knife.  It was a brief pain, but it was excruciating.  One day this week I woke up and nursed and the pain just wasn’t there anymore…thank god.  I still get sore if she nurses a lot in one day, but nothing like before.  WHOO HOO!

 

I know I forgot a lot, but hopefully that helps someone out there know what to expect those first few days.  All I can say is that you need someone (hubby/mom/friend/etc) that can help you get some sleep and help with diaper changes/etc…especially if you are breastfeeding because you are going to feel like that is all you do.  Get food prepared ahead of time or have a meal train scheduled to help because that’s the last thing you’ll want to mess with!  Download a good app to track feeding/diapers.  Have some gas drops on hand at the house before you bring baby home.  Also have some stain remover, because the poop just keeps coming.

 

Questions to keep up with:

1. Is your baby back up to birth weight?  We weighed her at home (me weighing without her, then holding her) last night and she was 9.8…so yes.  She has an appointment next Friday and I’m curious what they will say she weighs…I’m guessing 10 lbs by then!
2.  Are you breastfeeding/how often?  Yes- solely breastfeeding (she hasn’t had any formula and I haven’t started pumping yet).  According to my app I feed about 4 hours a day (yikes), at an average of every 3ish hours.  She usually eats for 20-25 minutes on one breast and then I feed off the other the next time.
3. How is momma’s recovery?  Have you lost weight?  Are you still bleeding?  Can you walk around and lift things?  I’m doing awesome.  I stopped taking any pain pills 3 days after surgery and have been walking around since the morning after.  I’m still not suppose to lift anything heavier than Finley, but I know I could.  I feel great.  As far as weight, as of my appointment on Monday I am down 27 lbs.  I gained only 15 during pregnancy, so I’m actually 12 lbs lighter than I started out.  Weird, I know.  I’ll take it.  I’m still bleeding, but hardly at all.  I’ve only been wearing a panty liner for a couple of weeks now (thank god, I hate pads…make me feel gross).  All in all, I’m super happy with my recovery!  I go back on March 5th for my 6 week appointment…I know Chris is excited for that one, as I’ll hopefully get the ‘go ahead’ to go back to all physical activities.  =)
4.  Who is helping?  Is Dad around?  Chris is off work and is SOOOOO much help!  I’m loving every second of seeing him be a daddy.  He’s off until April if he wants, but I’m guessing he’ll be off a couple more weeks and then start going in a few days a week until we get into a good routine.
5.  How is the sleeping situation?  Finley sleeps great as long as she’s on top of mom or dad!  LOL.  If we have her on her belly on our chest she will sleep anywhere from 3-4 hours (she’d go longer at night if I didn’t wake her up).  We know this isn’t a permanent scenario, so going to start putting her in our room some next week and ease into it.  Wish us luck!

6.  Any baby milestones this week?  Well, Finley came out of the womb lifting her head, so that’s not new.  No major milestones I guess…looking forward to her smiling on purpose in a few weeks, though!

 

That’s all I have for now- have a good weekend all!

 

Finley annoyed look

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Some good news…and WK 28

So I’ve been dreading this trip to Texas for a while, but it has ended up being great so far. It’s my last pre-baby work trip, so I’ve been looking forward to getting it over with!  It usually takes me about 6.5 hours to make the trip, but this time it took me about a full hour longer because I had to stop and pee so many times.  And I wasn’t even drinking b/c I knew it’d make it worse!  Oh well, I made it.

I got to the office this morning, and the comments from people have just been so sweet and positive.  This is the first time I’ve been here since I really LOOK pregnant, and people are really taking notice.  I have felt like I’ve gotten huge, but I’ve had comments such as “you are tiny” and “you are all belly” which just has me grinning from ear to ear like a lunatic.  These people probably say this to everyone (it’s like when someone gets a hair cut and you say oh, I like your hair cut….when you may not), but to someone who hasn’t been around a lot of people lately it’s sure nice to hear that I may not look at big as I feel!

I met with the HR director this morning to get the forms that I’ll need to fax in once the baby arrives…and I got the best news ever.  Several months ago, I was incredibly bummed when I met with her and found out that our company policy doesn’t provide for any maternity leave at 100% paid.  I was told I could take up to 6-8 weeks (depending on delivery method) and use whatever sick leave/vacation time I had (which would be 6 weeks at the beginning of the year) during that time in order to not miss any checks, but that was it.  It wasn’t the end of the world, but I was bummed.  I took our CFO to lunch that week and we talked about it…he’s a very sweet older man, and he seemed pretty bummed about the deal as well.  Fast forward a few months to today, and my HR director tells me that my CFO has gotten our company policy changed so that non-exempt, salaried employees (of which I am the ONLY female)…as of January 1st 2014….will get 6-8 weeks (depending on delivery method) of paid time off for maternity leave.  I can then use any vacation and sick leave I have on top of this if I want…meaning I can take 11-13 weeks at 100% pay.  Wow, that’s a lot of details.  I am so relieved…and blessed!  I’ve been stressing about this for a while, so now I can relax about it.  It’s been a good morning.

We had our second 3D scan (since the first one was a bust with Miss Hott being uncooperative) last Friday, and it was much better.  It was confirmed AGAIN (for the 4th time, lol) that she is a girl, so I’m feeling good about that.  =)  And everything looks good/healthy/right on track.  It was a little hard to see her super clearly because she had her feet up by her head and the umbilical cord was floating in front of her face a lot, but we did get a few pics, which I will post below.  She looks like any other baby, really…..but at least she looks like a baby now!  Yay!!

And now, your weekly update:

eggplant

Baby is the size of an eggplant! At week 28, he is putting on layers
of fat and still weighs somewhere between 1.5 and 2.2 pounds. He measures
around 13.6 to 14.8 inches. His skin has a smoother and less wrinkled
appearance too. And his lungs are mature enough that he could probably breathe
on his own if he were born prematurely. Plus, his eyes, which can now open and
close, can sense changes to light as well. The groundwork for his vision has been
laid, but baby’s sight will actually continue to develop during infancy after
he’s born. Still, those blinking peepers are something to get excited
over!

How far along? 28 weeks.  Doesn’t sound that impressive, but when I say I only have 12 weeks left, that blows my mind!  12 weeks!  That goes soooo fast.  Seriously.  Where has the time gone?!?

Total weight gain: I still haven’t weighed myself, but I have an appointment next week…so we shall see. I’m guessing I’ll be up a total of 7 to 10 pounds.  I really feel like I’ve grown a lot recently.

Maternity clothes? Yes, anytime I’m in public.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep: Not well, which is my only complaint.  I go to bed around 11 and get up probably 3 times to pee before I get up for the day.  In between that, I wake up about every hour or hour and half to roll over.  I’ll start on one side, but then my hip starts aching and wakes me up and I have to switch sides. This goes on and on all night.  At least my hands are not falling asleep anymore since I have been wearing the carpal tunnel wrist braces!

Best moment this week: Had a 3D scan on Friday, and Baby Hott was very active this time….so cool to get to see her.  She looks just like any other baby to me, but it’s still cool to see the actual human form in my belly.  Some pics below.  Also, got the closet in the nursery all set-up as far as shelves go, so excited to start organizing that.  And the news about my maternity leave was huge….so happy about that.

Miss Anything? Solid sleep

Movement: At least every couple of hours.  I actually got really stressed out last Saturday because I hadn’t felt her move all day/evening….but then she woke me up around 2 am with a few swift kicks to the vagina.  Yes, that’s a thing.  And yes, it doesn’t feel good.  BUT….I was so relieved to feel her at that point that I didn’t mind.

Food cravings: All things sweet.  Guilty confession of the week- on the drive to Tyler, TX yesterday I bought some of those Little Debbie ‘Donut Sticks’ at a gas station.  So so so bad for me…but OMG they were delicious.

Anything making you queasy or sick: I’ve realized that any fast food chicken kinda grosses me out.  I tried some chicken strips from Arby’s early on in the pregnancy and spit those out.   I got some chicken nuggets from Wendy’s the other day (which I love) and thought I was gonna puke before I could spit those out as well.  Weird, I know.  So, I’m just avoiding all fast food chicken.  Not a bad thing, really. At least the chicken on the salads at Zaxby’s still sits well….

Gender prediction: Baby Girl!  OMG, one of my pregnant friends that I email with (we found each other on an infertility site when we each had IUIs within a day of each other) just found out….at 28 weeks…that her girl is a BOY!  I feel so bad for her.  Not because it’s a boy, because he’ll be great and she’ll love him just as much, but because she was told it was  girl for months and it changed.  I can’t imagine.  =(

Labor Signs: None

Symptoms: Fatigue, frequent urination, sciatic nerve pain (think that is my issue with my hips at night) and heartburn at night when I lay down.

Belly Button in or out? In, but definitely shallow.  I have a feeling it’ll end up popping out, which I didn’t think it would since I’ve always had a chunky belly.  We shall see…

Wedding rings on or off? They fit, but I can tell they are tighter.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Annoyingly happy, I’m sure.

Looking forward to: Hopefully finishing the nursery in November…baby showers in November…and my next ultrasound in November.

Next appointment: Next Tuesday, for the rH shot.  Ugh.

 

Finley 3D Oct

Finley 3D Oct 2

This one is of her legs crossed- such a lady.  Wonder where she gets that?

Finley 3D Oct legs

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I’m an A student

I got the call on Friday- my blood work came back normal! Whoo hoo!! What a relief. I would have been soooo depressed if I’d had to be on some sort of meal tracking plan for the next several months.  Thanks for all the kind comments and texts thinking about me….I was stressing out!

So this past Friday was our 3D scan of Baby Hott- I was so excited!  For my first big ultrasound (the gender reveal one), I had a little caffeine before the appointment (which I gave up when I got pregnant) to make sure she’d move around and let us see her body parts, and she moved around like crazy the whole time.  For the second major ultrasound (where they confirmed gender again AND checked the heart/other organs/etc), I had some chocolate milk on the way to wake her up and that did the trick…she moved around like crazy again.  Before this appointment, Chris told me not to do either because we might not get good picture with her moving so much.  BIG MISTAKE.  The little stinker slept through the whole appointment…cuddled up RIGHT next to my placenta with her arm pretty much covering her face.  I moved around and layed on different sides, but nothing worked to get her to rouse.  We got little glimpses of her, but not much.  We got one picture that SORT OF shows her face (look at those cheeks!)….and note that the weirdness covering her mouth/half of face is her arm curled up…and I’m not sure what the thing is to the right, but it’s not her ear (otherwise I’d be having a Shrek baby!):

 

Finley 3D

This ultrasound was an elective one (we went to BabyFaces in Bentonville- they also did our gender reveal) that only cost $100.  The tech was so sweet- since we had such a hard time seeing her on Friday, she’s going to do the scan again (for free) this coming up Friday!  WHOO HOO!!!  Another scan!  And this time I’m not listening to my husband- I’m having a little soda on the way to wake this baby up.  At this point in pregnancy, the books say that babies have distinct routines developed now….and I’m pretty sure Baby Hott sleeps from about 11 to 4 or so every day.  She’s in for a surprise on Friday!  LOL.

Got a busy few weeks coming up- have a big meeting this Wednesday (that my CEO is coming in to attend with me…joy)….going out of town to visit the in-laws this weekend….and will be out of town all next week for work.  Time is flying by.

As of tomorrow I’ll be 27 weeks- which means a 90% chance of Baby Hott surviving if she comes early.  What a relief.

XOXO

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25 Weeks- Karate Practice!

Well, baby girl has taken up karate….and she likes to practice ALL.THE.TIME.  I’ll be honest, I love it.  Even when she wakes me up at 3am.  And 5am.  And 7am.  She was moving around a lot last night while Chris and I were watching a movie, so I curled up next to Chris and had him put his hand on my belly.  It wasn’t 5 minutes later when he said “Man, she’s going crazy in there!”  Yup, dude…..you should feel it from the inside!  I’m sure I’ll get sick of it by January, but for now it’s amazing.  Heck, who am I kidding….I’ll never get sick of it.  Yes, I am one of ‘those’ women…..the ones who absolutely love being pregnant.  Sorry!  (nope, not at all)….

On to this week’s update- Week 25:

 

Baby is the size of a cauliflower!  Your baby measures about 13.6 inches to 14.8 inches and weighs somewhere between 1.5 to 2.2 pounds.  During week 25, baby’s nervous system is rapidly developing, and he’s enjoying his new sense of equilibrium – knowing which way is up and which is down.  Plus, he’s growing more hair too!  Will he have Mommy’s hair color?  Daddy’s hair color? Or a different color altogether?  The suspense of what baby will look like is building

How far along? 25 weeks

Total weight gain: I weighed in at the doctor’s office yesterday, and I had gained only one more lb….so I’m +3 so far in this pregnancy.  I really can’t believe it and really think the scale might be off, because I look like I’ve gained at least 15 or so…….and I haven’t passed by a sweet snack lately without inhaling at least two!

Maternity clothes? Yes- got a lot at the Rhea Lana sale in Dallas a couple of weeks ago, so now that they are washed/etc I am starting to break them in….and loving them!  I still wear a couple pairs of my ‘fat pants’ and regular shirts a lot, but I like wearing maternity better…..it’s most comfortable AND makes me feel most confident.

Stretch marks?  Haven’t notice any new ones…

Sleep:  I’ve slept more over the past couple of days, which has been awesome.  My shoulder is still jacked up, but the chiropractor seemed to help me some and I feel like it’s getting better.  Plus, now that I’m home, I’m able to use my pregnancy pillow + 3 other pillows to prop myself up of either side and not put pressure on my shoulders….it’s been working.  I ALSO talked to the doc yesterday about how badly I want to sleep on my back, and he said that as long as I put a firm pillow under one of my cheeks (to lift it up) I should be fine.  Gonna try that tonight….just hoping it doesn’t mess my back up (I have a bum back, BTW).

Best moment this week: Several moments- got to see a dear friend who lives in St. Louis (so wished we lived closer) and share in her baby joy (she’s pregnant…about 6 weeks behind me)….got the nursery painted and now the changing table/rocker/crib is all set-up and looks great…..started working on my home office and will be working from home 100% by the end of the week….and had a good baby appt yesterday (measured on track, heart beat was 150 and the drink for the Glucose test wasn’t too horrible.  won’t get results on that til next week sometime).  Oh….and…..the Hogs were able to be competitive with Texas A&M, which surprised me and made me happy.  It was fun seeing Johnny Football get sacked in our stadium.  =)

Miss Anything? Not really….at least this week.

Movement:  Lots :)

Food cravings:   Anything sweet.  And italian food.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope.

Gender prediction: She has a whoo-ha

Labor Signs:  Nope, thankfully.

Symptoms:  Heartburn  when I lay down.  Still getting some numbness in my hands.  Tire easily.

Belly Button in or out?  In.

Wedding rings on or off?  On.

Happy or Moody most of the time:  Giddy.

Looking forward to:  Everything coming up.  Dinner with a friend Thursday…lunch with gals Friday….b-day parties and gender reveals this weekend…girls night Monday….working from home all the time….picking out stuff for the nursery walls…everything.

Next appointment:  October 29th, when I go in for my Rh shot in the butt.  I heard it burns…we shall see!  My blood type is O-…..and since Chris’s blood is Rh positive it can create issues if…due to some sort abnormality…. the baby’s blood mixes with mine during pregnancy.  If this happens, my body would recognize the Rh protein as a foreign substance and try to destroy it….which we obviously can’t have.  So….this shot prevents that chance from happening.  =)

 

I’ll try to post some pics of the office/nursery/belly next week!

 

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VIABILITY WEEK- 24

This week marks an important milestone to me- it’s viability week!  This means that Baby Hott has a chance of survival if she’s born starting this week forward.  The chance wouldn’t be great this week (around 50%), but it’s a chance!  Don’t know why this week is so important in my mind, but it is and I feel like I accomplished something grand.  =)  Now I’m waiting to hit 27 weeks, which increases the chances to closer to 90%.

Baby is the size of a cantaloupe! At week 24, your baby’s see-through skin is gradually becoming less translucent and is starting to look more opaque, like your own, but with the beauty of a new pink glow, thanks to the small capillaries that have recently formed. Plus, he’s getting heavier and now weighs 12.7 to 20.8 ounces. He’s 10.5 to 11.8 inches long now, too — nearly an entire foot!

I read a few different comparisons each week, and the Pregnant Chicken blog says that baby is the size of a footlong sub- that comparison cracks me up, I don’t know why.  I like it.  And the baby might be the size of a cantaloupe, but do you realize that the uterus is the size of a SOCCER BALL?!?  This explains why my belly is getting so big.  I’ll try to post some pics next week- now that I’m back in town I can have Chris take a few for me.  =)

How far along? 24 weeks earlier this week.  Yay viability!

Total weight gain: I really don’t know, but will find out at the doc next week.  I’m going to guess that I’m around +8-10 by then?  I feel like I’ve grown a lot over the past month…

Maternity clothes? Yes, and I love them.  They are comfy, and the shirts actually make the belly look more pregnant and less fat.  I like that.  =)

Stretch marks? No new ones yet.

Sleep: I am not sleeping well, but not due to baby.  Pretty sure I have sprung my shoulder or something…it’s bad.  I’m in a lot of pain and can’t put any weight on it at all, which means no sleeping on my left side (which is ideal for blood flow for the baby).  I went to the chiro today and will ice over the weekend and see if that helps….

Best moment this week: Chris got to feel baby last night when I got back in town!  I had felt her move on Tuesday when I was taking a bath (it shocked me, as her kick literally lifted my iPad off of my belly….yes, I play on my iPad in the bathtub), but I thought it was a fluke and maybe she was just in a really weird position.  So….last night when we were cuddling on the couch I felt her kicking around and grabbed Chris’s hand and BAM…hard kick.  Felt a lot of love at that moment and was just so excited to share it with Chris.  Shit just got real!

Miss Anything? Sleeping is all I miss….loving everything

Movement:  TONS.  She is very active….which concerns me a little bit for when she’s actually born, lol.  I love feeling her all day.  She’s most active at night…or maybe it’s just that I can focus on the movement more when I lay down?

Food cravings: Pretty much anything sweet…especially pancakes.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope

Gender prediction: Boobs, not balls.

Labor Signs: No, thank you.  I did have a few concerning moments this week (probably TMI for you, but had some weird discharge and then some bleeding- all in one day) when I was out of town, but it went away after one day so I feel ok about it.  Will tell doc next week, just to be safe.

Symptoms: Heartburn at night, no matter what I eat or when (but Tums makes it all better) and lots of peeing.

Belly Button in or out? In, but Chris did comment last night that it’s more ‘shallow’ now….

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody Happy

Looking forward to: Long sleeves all the time….Halloween……eating fall food (like chili)….

Next appointment: Tuesday, Oct 1st- glucose test.

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Trying to Stay Positive

Well, Aunt Flow showed up on March 31st…no surprise there. I’ve done pretty well with managing expectations throughout each cycle, but it still gets me down. And it’s alienating to some extent. I have friends I could talk to, sure, but I don’t really feel like they truly get it. And I don’t want to start crying about it….which I will if I start talking about it…so I don’t. What is there to really say anyway, ya know? And my friends don’t have any answer that is comforting, so why put them in that position to start with, right? Anyway….here’s to another BFN.

We have our specialist appointment this Friday afternoon. I’m anxious to see what Dr. M has to say about everything…I’ll keep you posted! You should see all of the paperwork I have to complete before the appointment- it’s ridiculous! I’m having to look up dates of procedures/tests to try to make sure I have everything ready to discuss. It’s a pain in the ass, but hopefully it will be worth it.

One thing that makes me happy? My friend went to Dr. M less than a year ago for IVF and now has the most adorable, healthy little girl. Maybe he knows what he’s doing…

 

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